Absolution In Blue

The act of forgiving oneself is, perhaps, the hardest task that most of us will ever face. Throughout our lives we take on burden after burden and slowly we bind ourselves up in fetters of guilt and self-loathing. These negative feelings that we take on towards ourselves become seductively easy to take on and addictive. The more we take on the easier it becomes to take on yet more and it becomes a vicious and infinite loop. It's so easy to dislike ourselves and so difficult to forgive. Many of us spend years of our lives wrapped up in this kind of misery. The decision to dislike ourselves is virtually subconscious but the decision to forgive ourselves must be not only conscious but it must also be renewed daily, sometimes it must even be renewed minute by minute requiring a great determination of spirit and mind.